With the school year in full swing, I wanted to send a note to my son to let him know a few things!
Life gets busy sometimes and you don't get a chance to always tell a loved one how you feel.
last five years have not been easy for our family. Before you arrived
on this earth, your father and I had a rough journey to you! It was so
worth that hard journey. We lost so much over the years of infertility;
we lost so much more during the adoption journey. But looking back now
none of those things we lost or complained about meant anything. When
we think about our journey to you, we realize we gained a new family of
friends and support, we gained strength that we never knew we had and we
gained you! The most precious gift of life.
Your first years
of life were very difficult. It took away from what I would call the
fun that a toddler should have. Spending so much time in the hospital
and all doctor trips took away from the times you could have been
playing at a park or with friends. You had to be taken out of My Gym
cause we couldn't understand why you couldn't keep up with the other
children. How could we have known you about to have your first
seizure. Through all those days locked in a crib at a hospital and all
those delays those seizures put you through, you were happy and amazing
and you tried your best every step of the way. You never complained
being stuck in a crib for 48 hours with a thing on your head that looked
like a turban. You laughed and giggled and loved the attention.
driving to and from doctors in all counties and cities and even Boston
to help find a cure, you still laughed and enjoyed the "ride". You were
poked and prodded in all types of ways. CAT Scans and MRIs and EEGs
and cancer tests! You did every test with a smile on your face.
the last few years you needed to attend a special school to help guide
you through delays caused by the seizures and some delays that are just
part of who you are. And again you did every therapy with a smile.
They pushed you hard! Even with your migraines you still woke up every
morning and smiled and went off to school knowing you had PT, OT, Vision
and Speech to deal with.
You thrived in that school! They
taught you things that for most come naturally. Your therapists and
teachers had to teach you how to walk, climb stairs, eat, chew, swallow,
write, look at someone in the eyes while you speak to them, stack
blocks without having the urge to knock them down, stop you from running
away and so much more. You did amazing!
You survived falling
down a flight of stairs! I still to this day look up to heaven and say
thank you - it could have been a horrible accident that wasn't. You
have been on trips across the country and the islands. And each trip
you had a seizures. One of them on the plane. You have had to eat
things that mommy wouldn't have touched as a kid never mind as an
adult! But you ate anything I gave you with a that smile!!
you start your journey into kindergarten, I look at you and see a smart,
confident young boy with the best sense of humor, who has come farther
than anyone will know except your father and I. I could never imagined
how amazing it would be to become a mom - but I am even more amazed that
God allowed me to be YOUR mom. I'm glad I had to go through the
infertility journey cause it lead me to adoption. I'm glad the adoption
journey had a failure cause that failure then led me to you. All of
life's failures, accomplishments and heartbreaks are all meant for a
reason. We don't know them at the time and most of the time we don't
find out why we had to suffer through them! But I am lucky enough to
know why I had to go through what I did!
One day I hope I get a
chance to tell the one person who made this all possible that I love her
for what she gave us! Maybe one day??
I'm so happy I was there to share one of your life's milestones! And I feel privileged I am going to be there for more!!
Written By Chemene
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