The cold weather is upon us... we have officially turned off the A/C and are contemplating putting on the heat. We try so hard not too for we know that means shorts and tank top time is over. Another year to wait for the beach!
But it's during these times that we
spend more time with family and friends and share moments that will last
a lifetime. We go pumpkin picking and apple picking with others. We
start to think about the gifts we are going to buy one another. We
think of our budgets and the money we never seem to have in the bank for
the holidays, but always seem to figure it out in the end. We set up
breakfasts with friends and their children to create special moments.
The kids may not realize what we are doing but they will one day.
sit here and think of all that I am grateful for and all the special
moments that I am going to witness over just the next few months. For
us we celebrate Christmas and just the thought of waking up (exhausted)
seeing my kids faces when they know Santa has come, already makes me
smile. Knowing the Halloween party for the group is coming up for kids
is exciting knowing that so many families will meet and create new
But the one thing I think of right now is the
moments that are being created over the next few months will be
something L's birth mother will be anxiously awaiting to hear about in
January. We send pictures and letters to J each year. I get very
excited when I take his picture at Halloween and Thanksgiving and
Christmas and New Year's (which is his birthday), knowing that a simple
click of the camera will make someone very happy. That this one moment
and blink of our eye, will be forever put on her nightstand.
people might hear what I do on a daily basis and think that I think of
adoption all the time. I actually don't. I probably think about it
when I am at a meeting or if L brings it up. But explaining to a new
member how the adoption process works is kind of second nature now and
it really doesn't seem like I'm speaking of adoption - I feel like I am
speaking of creating a family. But I will be honest, when September
and October hits I think about it all the time. Preparing my letter to J
in my head. Going through all the details of what L did this year that
I can't wait to write down. The trips, the milestones, the silly
things 5 years olds say, the books he likes, anything at all. I know
she wants as much as I can provide. I spend hours typing up paragraph
upon paragraph for her to read.
Over the last couple
years I decided to best way for me to remember so many details is to
write each section by the month. I go through thousands and thousands
of pictures for her and make sure she gets enough to make her feel like
she was there! As I write the details I tear up every time. Is she
sitting at home waiting for this? Is she looking at the moon knowing
that we are staring at the same one? Does she secretly hope that one
day we bump into each other? What goes through her mind? What is she
thinking when she sees his beautiful face? Does it give her any comfort
knowing he is loved more than the world? That he is safe and warm? I
want to be a fly on the wall so bad.
one day I can ask her what she was feeling around this time while I sit
and think of her... Is she thinking of us tonight while I write this
blog? One day I know I will find out... but until then ...
I enjoy creating moments!
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